Wednesday doubles kick my a$$!
Thursday, May 24, 2012
Tuesday, May 15, 2012
Objects with meaning....
Emotional confession...
When I miss my dad, I always wear the little gold heart he got me a long time ago and it makes me feel better.
I have it on now. :)
Monday, May 14, 2012
...
This is why I was never really good at diaries. I would write in one religiously for weeks and then all of the sudden stop. Part of me knows that I've slowed down writing because I'm not out on the road, blogging about my adventures. A small part of me really has nothing to say. And the other part of me has all kinds of thoughts and ideas through out the day, I just get tired and lazy by the time I get home and either can't remember them or don't feel like writing.
I miss mom on her day. I miss following the parade of homes and then getting together for an evening meal. I worked today and made sure to wish every women I served a Happy Mother's Day.
The weather here is definitely starting to change and it's amazing. The only un-amazing part is that now I have to work to support myself and can't bike ride everyday like I'd like to. (stupid job) So for now I'm just trying to fit a few days in of the park or biking and I'm picking up as many shifts as I can to save money for the trip back home the end of June. I can't wait to see the fam and meet my new little niece.
I hope everyone is doing good and only a month and a half and I'll be back to visit. :)
I miss mom on her day. I miss following the parade of homes and then getting together for an evening meal. I worked today and made sure to wish every women I served a Happy Mother's Day.
The weather here is definitely starting to change and it's amazing. The only un-amazing part is that now I have to work to support myself and can't bike ride everyday like I'd like to. (stupid job) So for now I'm just trying to fit a few days in of the park or biking and I'm picking up as many shifts as I can to save money for the trip back home the end of June. I can't wait to see the fam and meet my new little niece.
I hope everyone is doing good and only a month and a half and I'll be back to visit. :)
Friday, May 4, 2012
The day after...
I haven't posted in so long that even Blogger has changed things on me, lol. Trying to figure out the new set-up they have.
The only thing that's really changed since I last posted is that I am now another year older. It's odd how every birthday I expect to actually feel older, but I don't. I'd like to feel wiser. I'd like to feel like I know what I'm doing with my life, but I don't.
Arizona was interesting/fun/hot. I got to meant my roomie's parents and see a few of the sights but I was only there for a couple of days and couldn't fit much into the schedule. I've been working at the restaurant. It's been getting easier but it's still tough work. The tips make it worth it though.
And I still wonder what I'm doing with my life. I'm starting to feel a pull again, to some other destination, but I also realize that sometimes my feelings are fickle and when I speak on them, people get hopeful.
To be honest, I'm ready for another adventure. The mundane of everyday life has taken it's toll and I'm feeling ready to press on. The weather here hasn't really been cooperating in terms of bike riding. It's still cloudy and rainy most days. I've been out every so often for drinks with random guys but I'm still undecided if I want to get serious enough to stay here.
I miss the sun.
I'm hoping that soon I can strap my new bike carrier (that I bought myself for my birthday) to my car and head to the park. I try to get there any day that it's even remotely nice or that I don't have to work.
I suppose I feel a little melancholy because of the whole birthday thing.
In a few weeks, it will be one whole year since I flew up here to visit Andrew. Where did the year go? Why does it go by so quickly? There were so many changes and ups-and-downs.
I really feel like I need to compromise with myself on what I want. Geographically, emotionally, familyally.
At the end of the day, I just want to be happy. And when there's no sun, no biking, nothing extraordinary that I love about Eugene.....I just want to be back home with family.
The only thing that's really changed since I last posted is that I am now another year older. It's odd how every birthday I expect to actually feel older, but I don't. I'd like to feel wiser. I'd like to feel like I know what I'm doing with my life, but I don't.
Arizona was interesting/fun/hot. I got to meant my roomie's parents and see a few of the sights but I was only there for a couple of days and couldn't fit much into the schedule. I've been working at the restaurant. It's been getting easier but it's still tough work. The tips make it worth it though.
And I still wonder what I'm doing with my life. I'm starting to feel a pull again, to some other destination, but I also realize that sometimes my feelings are fickle and when I speak on them, people get hopeful.
To be honest, I'm ready for another adventure. The mundane of everyday life has taken it's toll and I'm feeling ready to press on. The weather here hasn't really been cooperating in terms of bike riding. It's still cloudy and rainy most days. I've been out every so often for drinks with random guys but I'm still undecided if I want to get serious enough to stay here.
I miss the sun.
I'm hoping that soon I can strap my new bike carrier (that I bought myself for my birthday) to my car and head to the park. I try to get there any day that it's even remotely nice or that I don't have to work.
I suppose I feel a little melancholy because of the whole birthday thing.
In a few weeks, it will be one whole year since I flew up here to visit Andrew. Where did the year go? Why does it go by so quickly? There were so many changes and ups-and-downs.
I really feel like I need to compromise with myself on what I want. Geographically, emotionally, familyally.
At the end of the day, I just want to be happy. And when there's no sun, no biking, nothing extraordinary that I love about Eugene.....I just want to be back home with family.
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